Some of us need to practise indulging ourselves. Poor habits started early and taking care of myself isn't my strong suit. I was raised in a way that promoted doing what was in front of me to do- whether it was mine or not. I was also raised to try to take care of the people around me.
A child of chaos will do these things. And so living my life indiscriminately led to all manner of ills. By the time I realised that my points of reference were wrong much damage had been done. Running on empty had become a way of life...
I've learned there are 7 things that I am responsible for. Things required for survival. The basics, contact with others, oxygen, water, nutrition, rest, elimination, and temperature. As I aim for the middle path it constantly amazes me how badly I can screw these up!
On a day like today, when I am aware that the balance has tipped I know what I need to focus on. But adding in a little kindness is the tough part. I'll give myself the time it's taking to write this and I'll just do the best I can to get threw this day. After all I'm not alone, and every day doesn't hurt this much :)
